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The Heaven-Hell Love-Hate Rollercoaster Ride

Heaven-Hell Rollercoaster

Relationship Rollercoaster ~CordieB

This seemingly unending roller coaster ride is wearing me out

Why won’t the conductor stop this ride . . . I scream! I cry! I shout!

I hold on tight; while alternately waving my hands wildly in the air

I look to the clouds, Oh God, I whisper a desperate prayer

The roller coaster ride is making me feel ill, ill, ill!

Round and round; up and down; over and over;  never still

My stomach drops–aches with nausea; head aches; heart races

Round and round; up and down; recycling, revisiting the same stories, spaces, places

The roller coaster stops briefly; Alas, I can now get off —

Finally! I catch my breath…Enough is enough is enough, IS ENOUGH!

But NO! . . . the conductor obliviously pulls the switch again!

I curse! If I ride this damn ride once more; I’ll surely go insane

Yet, with half-closed, squinted eyes, I ascend slowly, steadily to the top of the track

I reach the top – Whoa! Here I go again, plunging swiftly, violently back

Into the abyss of twirling ups and downs; abrupt turns, turn arounds

I swear when this roller coaster again slows down

I’m jumping off! I’d much rather be bruised; broken, pray tell . . .

Not dead, from riding this never ending circle of heaven hell

…Get on a calmer ride; perhaps, maybe? the merry go round

Then again, I think I’ll stick, perhaps, maybe? to solid ground

~By CordieB

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I wrote this poem today and drew the picture after being hurled down another steep rollercoaster ride – my fault though!  F…. me once, shame on you . . . F….. me twice, three, four. . . . shame on me!  Anywho . . . I read the words below on Lostwidow’s blog some time ago.  The words she shared came back clearly to me.  Thus, I clicked on over there, read it about twice; now I’m cutting and pasting to share the words with you below.  

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There are people who can walk away from you. And hear me when I tell you this! When
people can walk away from you: let them walk. 
I don’t want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.

When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.

The Bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us.[1 John 2:19]

People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can’t make them stay.

Let them go.

And it doesn’t mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you’ve got to know when people’s part in your story is over so that you don’t keep trying to raise the dead.

You’ve got to know when it’s dead.

You’ve got to know when it’s over. Let me tell you something. I’ve got the gift of good-bye. It’s the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye. It’s not that I’m hateful, it’s that I’m faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He’ll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don’t need it. Stop begging people to stay.

Let them go!!
If you are holding on to something that doesn’t belong to you and was never intended for your life,

then you need to……

LET IT GO!!!

LET IT GO!!!

LET IT GO!!!

LET IT GO!!!

LET IT GO!!!

LET IT GO!!!

“The Battle is the Lord’s!”

T. J. Jakes

 

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Prescription Drug Overdose Deaths Double in Five Years


Photo courtesy of  Куртис Перри and is licensed under Creative Commons

“Last week I probably slept an average of two hours a night,” Ledger told The New York Times (in November). “I couldn’t stop thinking. My body was exhausted, and my mind was still going.” He said he took two Ambien pills, which only worked for an hour. 

The big drug addiction problem facing America, according to  statistics, lies not in the crack houses and shooting galleries of the inner cities, but in the doctor’s offices to which millions of Americans go in search of relief for their emotional and psychological pain.

People use prescription drugs to relieve various emotional problems, such as anger, stress, anxiety, boredom or depression. Others take these drugs to boost their self-confidence.  People may also use drugs to help them forget about or cope with traumatic life events or situations or to relieve the symptoms of severe psychiatric illness. 

According to the Center’s for Disease Control, poisoning from prescription drugs has risen to become the second-largest cause of unintentional deaths in the United States, (behind only automobile accidents) .

Most people take medicines only for the reasons their doctors prescribe them. But an estimated 20 percent of people in the United States have used prescription drugs for nonmedical reasons.  Some people take more than what is prescribed to get “high.”   Others combine the drugs to get an even more euphoric effect.  All of these usages lead to prescription drug abuse. 

Potential Warning Signs

  • Feeling the need to cut down on your use of prescription drugs?
  • Feeling annoyed by remarks your friends or loved ones make about your use of prescription drugs?
  • Feeling guilty or remorseful about your use of prescription drugs?
  • Using prescription drugs as a way to “get going” or to “calm down?”

Answering yes to one or more of these questions could indicate there is a problem.

Drug abuse and all self-abuse is caused by intense fear and self-centeredness. The solution is usually much simpler than therapeutic methods.   In most instances, the solution to fear and selfishness are faith and service to others.  Living a life based on these two basic principles will relieve addiction and help one to achieve permanent sobriety, and a healthy, happy life.

If you are experiencing anxiety, depression, addiction, or any other fears, and you would like to try a spiritual approach on your own, and FREE, I suggest visiting http://www.cyberrecovery.net/forums/  Also, you may personally email me, cordieb@msn.com, and I will gladly provide spiritual guidace to help you through your fears.

Peace, Light, and Love to you and Yours,

CordieB

Sources
Centers for Disease Control. Mobidity and Mortality Weekly Report. February 9, 2007 / 56(05);93-96.
Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration Office of Applied Studies. Results from the 2005 National Survey on Drug Use and Health: national findings. 2006.
Judy Wellsworth, http://www.ezinearticles.com